October 1, 2010

Dear Lucia,

You are breathing on your own!! This is a miracle. A week ago, they didn't think you'd be able to breathe on the vent and now you are fully breathing your own breaths. You are having the tube taken out this afternoon and going on the nasal cannula. I am so amazed. Also, your daddy had a positive interview and probably will be starting his new job soon! Things are turning around for us and for our family. I can't wait to take you home.

12:30pm your tube was taken out. They sat you up and for once, I could see your face, your big cheeks without any tape on them!! You sad there, wide-eyed, so cute, not sure what to make of it. You let out a squeal - a very quiet, hoarse squeal. You are learning the power of your voice, and you will be raspy for some time but then we will hear you loud and clear. I think you have so much to say. You've let out such cute little sounds, squeaky protests to diaper changes, hoarse coughs. I'm sure you'll be loud and clear in no time.

Also, we can bring your swing, bouncer, swaddle you... We can finally use all of the things we have at home. We can finally begin to enjoy spending time together as a family and spoiling you as our baby.

I miss you - I hate staying here in a different place, under a different roof, where I can't peek in on you and give you kisses.

Keep on fighting - you make me so proud.

Love,

Mama