November 3, 2010

Dear Lucia,

Sometimes days fly by so fast that I hardly have time to write in this! You are 7.5 weeks old now and you are so amazing, changing every day. Lately you are VERY into pulling your tube out. I really hope we can take it out for good soon. You are meeting with a speech therapist soon and hopefully they can work on your swallow. You took so many bottles today!! You took 55 mL at 9, entire 80 at noon, and 45 around 3. You get frustrated because the milk is thickened but you keep plugging along. We just need to re-do the swallow study so you can take regular milk. I still hold out the hope that you can breastfeed one day. I hope so. You are always rooting, trying to feed. I know the desire is there.

Your hair is still brown, but getting lighter every day. I wonder if you will be a blond. One thing is for sure, you will be a heartbreaker. You are so beautiful. We love to take advantage when your tube is out and take photos of you. You are such a pretty baby. I love spoiling you and I look forward to things like Christmas stockings and party dresses and patent leather mary janes.

You are an amazing little baby, and I am still adjusting to the fact that you are here. Every morning I wake up and I'm amazed. At night, you are alert and you look me straight in the eye, wide-eyed. You smile!! You give me the most beautiful wide-eyed smiles. You know I'm your mom and that I love you so much.

I don't want to go back to work, ever. I want to spend every minute with you! Days are so busy that we don't always get quiet time together. I savor every single minute we have.

I love you!!

Love, Mama